If you’re anything like me, quiet time alone with nothing to do is a very precious commodity. Life has a funny way of filling our every moment with urgent tasks and even when all the important stuff is done, I am great at finding ways of occupying what’s left. Youtube and Twitter rabbit-holes are so easy to fall down and equally hard to get out of.
So then, when I do manage a rare moment of time alone to be with God, to read my bible and to pray, I have so much that I want to say and do that it all ends up feeling so pressured and rushed. I have verses to read, people to pray for and so on, and so on… More often than not, I finish my supposed quiet time feeling like I haven’t really done what I set out to do.
What I’ve been learning (re-learning?) this week at New Wine is that God just wants me to hang out with me. He simply wants me to sit and be in his presence without worrying about the right things to say or bringing the right prayers. When I brought my youngest daughter to impact again the other morning, all she really wanted was to be with me, doing whatever I was doing. She didn’t have a list of things to tell me or to ask for, she just wanted to chill out and sit with her Dad.
So again, just like last year, she’s teaching me about that childlike relationship with our loving Heavenly Father. I would do anything for my children, but how much I love her (and her siblings) is nothing compared with the massive, unfailing, unfathomable love that God has for every single one of us.
In Matthew 18:3, Jesus exhorts us to become like little children. To have the kind of faith that they do – wide-eyed, immediate and unquestioning – and to treat our Heavenly Father as we would the most loving parent.
So why do we feel the need to make things so complicated? Maybe, like me, you need to change the way you think about worship and time with God and simply turn up and hang out with him?